A Deep Reality: Earthly vs Heavenly Perspective

Disclaimer: This is a journal entry that was written during my darkest season of grief following the death of my sister, Allison, on March 13, 2015.

September 3, 2015

I was sad the other day at the thought of Allison not having the opportunity to breastfeed her second child like she wanted to… she even had faith in it happening. Breastfeeding was something she saw me do with three babies and it was an experience she wanted to have. You see, her only baby, Caroline, was born prematurely and was bottle-fed.

Inside the deep sadness I felt for Allison and what she was missing out on, a reality hit me.

I was sitting on the couch, holding my newborn 3-month-old. She was propped up on my knees smiling and cooing. It was a moment of complete peace, love, and contentment. It was perfection. I lacked nothing. A beautiful experience I can still feel 5 years later.

It was in that moment that I realized, even this, this amazing experience with my beloved child cannot even compare to the glorious life Allison and so many others are living in Heaven.

Our most lovely, peaceful, enjoyable, satisfying days on this Earth pale in comparison to what our loved ones are experiencing in Heaven.

Therefore, I have peace. I have hope. It is well. She is well.

Life is a gift. Every magical moment is a gift.

Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. James 1:17

Lord, etch these truths into my heart and mind and into the hearts of my parents.

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