The Conflict in Your Soul

I am scared about what the future holds. With each day, I move further away from the memory of my sister. Further away from the sound of her voice, the softness of her hand, the curly bounce in her hair.

Fear. Dread. Separation.

Our flesh and our minds gets clouded by worry and fear. Fear that we are losing our loved one.

This is precisely why I must tell my soul to worship the Lord.

As I stood in church listening to the beautiful voices singing this song, my heart was breaking. All I could think about was the amount of time that had already come between Allison and myself. I did not have the ability to worship even though I knew it would be good for me.

Even so, my soul and my spirit yearned for the arms of God to wrap around me. I yearned for the ultimate Comforter to hold me as I cried. I was in a conflicting place. My mind told me there was nothing positive inside of me that could possibly relate to the joy of worship. But my spirit told me that I needed God and for me, worship is where I feel Him the most.

I realized that I had to do something. I had to tell my soul what to do. The song writer is adamant; he says it twice!

Bless the Lord, Oh my soul, Oh my soul

We always have a choice. A choice to move forward or a choice to stay put. The thing that scares us about moving forward is the thought that we will forget our loved one. But, the magical reality is that as we move forward, commanding our souls to enter into God’s loving presence, we feel them. We feel them through God’s love. The deep feeling of sadness is softened with deep love for our dear one.

This love is intense, soul shaking, moving into your core. Allow yourself to experience the beautiful moment when your desperate sadness is transformed into loving, thankful, still broken, tears.

Listen to Matt Redman’s song below. Take control of your soul. Try to worship the Lord who loves you dearly.

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Praying comfort over you,

Laura